现任和前任美国国际开发署官员由于担心遭到报复，匿名发表讲话，抨击特朗普政府对援助机构的大开杀戒，称其让关键合作伙伴陷入困境，并让其许多工作人员在海外无人问津。
除了人道主义已经停止的工作生活在国外的几十名职业美国国际开发署工作人员也发现他们的生活天翻地覆。几位官员情绪激动地描述了他们目前的处境和不确定性。
所有美国国际开发署人道主义在世界各地工作这些现任和前任官员说，实际上已经停止，尽管国务院说，有救生项目的豁免。
“现在，没有美国国际开发署的人道主义援助发生，”美国国际开发署人道主义司的一名现任官员说。“卢比奥部长对紧急粮食援助和其他一些部门实行了豁免，但这是一种欺诈和骗局，旨在给人以连续性的假象，这是不真实的。”
这位官员还抨击弃权声明不明确，基本上不可执行，因为员工已经休假，就像埃隆马斯克的政府效率部一样夺取了对该机构的控制权.
这位官员还说，“已经没有工作人员来实际处理豁免请求、转移资金、进行奖励或做任何事情了。”。“我们已经不复存在了。”
美国国务卿马尔科·卢比奥(John Kerry)周二反驳非政府组织，称尽管有豁免，援助项目仍处于暂停状态。
他说:“我发布了一份全面弃权声明，声明如果这是拯救生命的项目，好吧——如果这是提供食物或药物或任何拯救生命的东西，而且是即时和紧急的，你不在冻结之列。”。“我不知道我们还能比这清楚多少。
卢比奥补充说:“我要说的是，如果某个组织从美国获得资金，但不知道如何申请豁免，那么我真的怀疑该组织的能力，或者我想知道他们是否出于政治目的故意破坏它。”
但上述美国国际开发署官员反驳说，这些部门“实际上无法获得他们在华盛顿特区的信贷额度，因为美国政府已经有义务根据合同提供资金。”
“这意味着缺乏援助，”这位官员继续说道。“这意味着裁员，意味着绝对的混乱和伤害。有些人可能有一些钱可以维持一段时间，但不会太久。”
另一位与许多美国国际开发署人道主义伙伴组织交谈过的前官员说，“自停工令以来，没有一个人收到任何资金来继续工作，即使理论上这项工作是允许继续的。”
美国国际开发署驻亚洲的一名现任官员怀孕了。
她在电话中泪流满面，解释说她不知道她的家人会发生什么，担心政府会把她“抛弃”在海外或美国
“我是十几个美国家庭中的一员，这些家庭正在使用或计划使用产科救伤直升机为我们接生。我们有一个涂有婴儿床的托儿所，为我们的孩子准备好了婴儿床，这花了我们三年的生育治疗才能怀上，”这位驻亚洲的官员说，她的声音因激动而颤抖。“我们没有为他们的到来做好准备和计划，而是不确定卢比奥部长和特朗普总统是否会在海外抛弃我们，或者在我们降落在美国土地上时抛弃我们。我们被告知，没有钱来帮助美国国际开发署的家庭等待我们的婴儿在美国重新定居。”
“我们一直在使用来自我们的教堂和社区团体的难民资源，我们通常用来帮助来自叙利亚和阿富汗等地的难民，”这位官员补充说。“我们正在利用这些资源来研究如何尽可能近地着陆。除非公众舆论的趋势发生转变，否则这些家庭中的每一个都将在踏上美国土地的几天内，甚至可能是几个小时内，变得无家可归、没有工作、没有保险。”
拉丁美洲地区一名现任官员的配偶说，他们家在美国没有家可回。
“我的配偶曾在战区服役。这位官员解释说:“我们有学龄儿童，他们面临着你在美国会面临的典型挑战，但没有你在美国会有的资源，我们不得不管理这些资源，我们愿意搬到对该机构最有利的地方。”。
这位官员补充说:“我们在不同的政府部门工作，项目不断变化、增长、收缩，现在的情况是，我们实际上已经把我们的生活集中在美国国际开发署的使命上，我们没有家可回，这是典型的外国服务家庭，我们不知道我们应该如何收拾行李，然后离开。”
“当你不仅有家人，不仅有学龄儿童——你有宠物，你有东西，你没有家可回，你有一个你相信并支持了几十年的使命，你怎么离开?”这位官员说。"它只是你身下的毯子."
卢比奥本周表示尽管美国国际开发署发布了一份30天授权为了他们的回归。
All USAID humanitarian work has effectively stopped, current and former officials say
Current and formerU.S. Agency for International Development officials, speaking anonymously due to fear of retribution, blasted the Trump administration's gutting of the aid agency, saying it has left critical partners in the lurch and much of its staff in limbo overseas.
In addition to the humanitarianwork that has halted, scores of career USAID workers living abroad are also seeing their lives turned upside down. Several officials were very emotional describing their current situations and uncertainty.
All USAID humanitarianwork around the worldhas effectively stopped, these current and former officials said, despite the State Department saying there are waivers for lifesaving programs.
"Right now, there is no USAID humanitarian assistance happening," a current USAID official in the humanitarian division said. "There are waivers put in place by Secretary Rubio for emergency food assistance and a number of other sectors, but they are a fraud and a sham and intended to give the illusion of continuity, which is untrue."
The official also slammed the waiver as unclear and largely unactionable because staff has been furloughed, as Elon Musk's Department of Government Efficiencyseized control of the agency.
"There is no staff left anymore to actually process waiver requests or to move money or to make awards or to do anything," that official added. "We've ceased to exist."
Secretary of State Marco Rubio on Tuesday pushed back on nongovernmental organizations saying aid programs remained paused despite the waiver.
"I issued a blanket waiver that said if this is lifesaving programs, OK -- if it's providing food or medicine or anything that is saving lives and is immediate and urgent, you're not included in the freeze," he said. "I don't know how much more clear we can be than that.
"And I would say if some organization is receiving funds from the United States and does not know how to apply a waiver, then I have real questions about the competence of that organization, or I wonder whether they're deliberately sabotaging it for purposes of making a political point," Rubio added.
But the above USAID official pushed back, saying those sectors are "actually unable to access their lines of credit here in Washington, D.C., for money already obligated to, already contractually put forward by the U.S. government."
"And this is meaning [a] lack of provision of assistance," the official continued. "This is meaning staff layoffs, meaning absolute confusion and mayhem. Some may have some money to keep going for a little bit, but not for long."
Another former official who spoke with numerous USAID humanitarian partner organizations said, "Not one has received any funding since the stop-work order to continue work, even if theoretically that work is allowed to continue."
One current USAID official based in Asia is pregnant.
She broke down in tears on the call, explaining how she doesn't know what is going to happen to her family, worried that the administration is going to "abandon" her overseas or back in the U.S.
"I am among more than a dozen American families that are either on or planning obstetric medevac to deliver our babies. We have a nursery painted with a crib ready for our baby that has taken us three years of fertility treatments to conceive," the official based in Asia said, her voice cracking with emotion. "Instead of nesting and planning for their arrival, we are unsure if Secretary Rubio and President Trump are going to abandon us overseas or abandon us when we land on American soil. We have been told there is no money to assist USAID families that are awaiting the arrival of our infants with resettlement in the U.S."
"We have been using refugee resources from our churches and community groups that we usually use to help refugees from places like Syria and Afghanistan," the official added. "We are using these resources to figure out how to land as close to on our feet as possible. Unless the tide of public opinion shifts, each of these families are going to arrive homeless, jobless and insurance-less within a matter of days, or possibly even hours, of stepping foot on American soil."
The spouse of a current official in the Latin America region said their family does not have a home to return to in the U.S.
"My spouse has served in a war zone. We have school-aged children with typical challenges you would face in the U.S., but with not the resources you would have in the U.S., that we've had to manage, and we've been willing to move wherever is best for the agency," this official explained.
"We worked across administrations with programs changing, growing, shrinking, and it's a circumstance right now where we literally have focused our life on this USAID mission, and we do not have a home to go back to, which is quite typical of Foreign Service families, and we don't know how we're supposed to pick up and just leave," the official added.
"How do you leave when you have not just family, not just school-age kids -- you have pets, you have things, you don't have a home to go back to, and you have a mission that you believe in and that you've supported for decades?" the official said. "And it's just the rug pulled under you."
Rubio said this weekit is "not our intention" to uproot USAID families abroad despite the agency issuing a30-day mandatefor their return.
